The casual atrocities of a war
I am not numb to the violence. I am not immune to the killings. Yet, there are many, and they are endless, but I am not numb. I am overwhelmed, stunned into silence, stunned into inaction. I cannot write another story of a killing. Or I cannot today. Or yesterday. Or the day before.
I have described the killings as actions, defined by players and reasons, applying logic to a slaughter. This cell or that group. Nicknames and dates, brief, often ill sources histories of men, and women whose songs are sometimes played in bars in Tijuana, and San Diego. To apply business rules to the killing is to create order where there appears to be none. And there is value in this, to not know, is to be ignorant. If you want to walk in this world, you need your guide.
There is a place you reach. I have read it in the works of Bowden, and Grillo. You begin to question yourself, lose your grasp. The killings do not make sense in the way they used to, before you immersed yourself. They are simply blood, and pain, and death. They are simply the way things are, the way things have become. I see it in myself now.
July 9th: A body appears in Laurel, with a plastic bag wrapped around the head, half naked, and signs of torture, ligature marks on his hands, bruises across the body.
July 8th: Two bodies found in Ejido Diaz Ordaz in Ensenada, the bodies are bound, and have been executed, in the style as the 4 found in Ensenada 10 days ago.
July 6th: A body is found, decomposing in a well, in Valle De Palmas.
I have described the killings with the feelings they leave in me, intimate, broken, feelings. I have described the process of death. The aftermath of bodies laying in the street. I have conflated and confused and mixed up my own personal life into the process. I have taken myself into the killings to give me perspective, and I have sometimes lost any perspective I had.
It's summer, and I'm in parties, tanned and relaxed, in coffee shops and lounges, and new restaurants and I cannot always keep them from me. I don't always want to. People don't like these things, they don't interest them. They have music, they have drinks, they have affairs, sex, a welcome touch, or wanting gaze from across the table, and I have these things to. But, I cannot look away. And I cannot help enough to heal. I've come to that place.
Sources: AFN Tijuana
One thing for sure, coroner's n paramedics have there hands full.
ReplyDeleteUndertakers and funeral homes, a booming business.
DeleteY do u post poetic drama on tijuana articles but not on other places like sinalao or matamoros? Seems odd
ReplyDeleteNot odd, J covers Bc and some articles in BCS mainly as did Tijuano, valor covers michoacan and guerrero, itzli covers Tamaulipas and coahuila, reporters at bb tend to work covering particular states.
DeleteItzli He or She is one of the best reporters here in BB I like the work he or she does mainly because it covers the Golfos/Zetaz war news in Tamaulipas, Nuevo León and Coahuila.
DeleteOn topic BB why haven't you guys posted the large arsenal that the Mexican soldiers confiscated in Nuevo Laredo this past Friday. It was a big hit to the CDN, seems that the arsenal was headed to the ribereña area is was rumored that the CDN wanted to enter Miguel Aleman with that arsenal and fight the plaza against Golfos meanwhile the CDG gets distracted in Reynosa with the infighting between Metros.
Being a reporter in Tamps/Coahuila is a death sentence, no Mexican major news outlets report on this area for good reason. Of the sites I have seen only Breibart Texas do. But Itzli definitely has his finger on the pulse when it comes to CdG and to some extend Zetas, Old School Zetas and CdN.
DeleteAs regards the arsenal confiscation , Yaqui has that article in draft so expect it soon.
Who runs Reynosa right now?
DeleteThe article is about TJ not lame as tamps. or nuevo leon.. quit hi-jacking the thread.
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DeleteIt is coming , ready go, lots of pics but not much detail
You think Tamaulipas is lame, you'll see lame if you look in the mirror. If you're on this site it's for information about what's going on on this topic,and that aplies to Tamaulipas, so keep negative comments to yourself. On that note,who is running Reynosa? I'm also interested if things have straightend out there. Hopefully. Those citizens deserve some peace of mind.
DeleteVery poetic article, perhaps it's a subject matter best served with dark, dull, empty prose tho.
ReplyDelete@3:31 That's a real good point, as in the case cf Roberto Bolano's "2666," in which he proses on and on about the feminicidios along the border in just such a dulled down mechanized voice The overall effect is much more powerful than an emotional style would be This here is a moving article, God's peace with its author
DeleteSad situation. I just hope that under a new commitment by US and Mexico to combat combating drugs and the violence can subside.
ReplyDeleteAn implementation of policies have shifted towards assistance. Let's just hope it works.
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4:00 any implementation of policies is oriented to obtaining ownersip of the drug trafficking for as long as possible for as much money as possible, while imprisoning the current pretty boys "to teach them a lesson"
DeleteTime for a little recent history: One Mexican town revolts against violence and corruption. Six years in, its experiment is working
ReplyDeletehttp://www.latimes.com/world/mexico-americas/la-fg-mexico-cheran-20170710-htmlstory.html
4:40 only indigneous communities can get away withself governing, mixed, mestizo, or whatever must submit, obey, surrender to the good for nothing mexican narxo-government and the satraps that command them...from the US...or hindú name lenders from the british empire, or the Netherlands.
DeleteIts coming , stay tuned and thanks.
DeleteIt is ready to go.
Thank you for humanizing something so inhuman. Just remember to not stare at the abyss for too long.
ReplyDeleteCasuAlties of war, sad but they are 8n the game and know their fate yet they still want that life. Most likely because of the drugs they consume that keeps them going and not thinking it's going to happen to them.
ReplyDelete5:02 undeclared "wars" are usually just Terror Campaigns against the people, and the causes are the personal greed of those that make off with everybody's money, property and lives, even the ones that don't get murdered, reinforced by the pendejadas of those that blame the murder victims, like you at 5:02 blaming "the drugs they consume"
DeleteYou don't know shit about "the drugs they consume" or even their names, but I know the state police kill and torture with reckless abndon all over mexico, helped by policias federales and a few municipales, then the armed forces do their own contributions to enhance their pay, like the polesias.
Life in Mexico is tough man, no denying that. I'm from Canada and want to know the worst thing to happen to me in a long time, my dog has broken ribs from a game of frisbee. Go down to Mexico and dogs are like barn cats.
ReplyDeleteDidn't really want to know but thx for telling us anyway
DeleteMexico is wonderful love it. I will go back as soon my work here is complete. Work here in the U.S. is great make $$$. And go home. Both countries have been good to me.my kid go to school and will get jobs.They have become Americanized and will not go back.
ReplyDeleteI have a friend that works for the government here in Mexico. I do not want to say which state or where he and I live. He collects the bodies and hauls them away. I asked him if it bothers him, or if he has nightmares about it. He said not anymore as it is just a job and he has gotten used to it. I was surprised to hear that. I could not go to the first one to be honest. I am sure I would be sick to my stomach.
ReplyDeleteIt's all that ice that moves through there that's making everyone go crazy. An ice head will kill for a quick buck or even more ice. Especially with the almost pure stuff that they have there. Ice is the devils drug. Cartel people know this so they just give it to there guys so they become all twacked out.
ReplyDeleteDr. Mireles calls for citizens of Tepalcatepec to take up arms against the invading Mexican Army.
ReplyDeleteKeep writing. Wonderfully written.
ReplyDeleteMexicali is brewing also
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